Hang in there Ayman,
You’re in the right place for help and advice.
I’m not the right person to offer that advice but the forums experts will be along soon I’m sure. My limited help is this, you will be alright with the advice you receive here. It’s all about getting the right treatment plan for your condition. Gout can be controlled to a point where you will be able to live a normal healthy life again.
I feel your pain, we all do. Help is just around the corner, I look forward to seeing the forum experts response to your pain.